Depression over lost inspiration

I'm very sorry, but my english is bad!

Depression

I am not blind

But I cannot see

I am not deaf

But I cannot hear

I am not dumb

But I have absolutely nothing to say

My eyes

My mouth

My ears

Are closed

Too the world around me

There is no system

Inside the system

In my mind

Everything is chaos

Nothing hangs together

Neither my sentences

Or my thoughts

And the illness gnaws

Gnaws

Gnaws

Gnaws

A big hole in my head

 So there is nothing back in there

Everything is gushing out from the crackled surface

Withdrawn frustrations there never before have seen the light

Self-hatred and dead creativity

I killed it my self

Strangled it with my own two hands when I pushed it too much

I am drowning again and again in my depression

Depression over lost inspiration